`Bettina :]

bored.

2008-08-21T00:15:00.000-07:00

color me blueee. ♥
im ovaa bored.
text? LOLS. :)))

bow down.

2008-08-06T00:57:00.000-07:00

geeez, i jes watched 17 video`s from Phil. ALLSTARS! i dunno whatta say man! haha. :)) nkakatuwa tolaga sila. HANDS DOWNNNNN. napanod co din yung WORLD HIP HOP CHAMPIONSHIP kanina ln. awwww! ANG GALING TOLAGA! gaaawd. :DD clap clap.

His-Story the Movie. (Phil. Allstars)
i must see this film. --

Twilight. :D

2008-08-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

DARN IT. Kakatapos ko lang basahin Twilight. Mga almost 3days straight kong binasa.. haha EEEEH. Gusto ko na mapanuod yung movieee! shieet. super pinanuod ko yung trailer kanina.. at nagsisigaw ako sa kilig. haha! Gusto ko na rin nung New Moon! Kaso I don't have money pa. Sana Mama will be kind enough to buy me another book. :D haaay. SANA. :]

Okay. so new Layie sa friendster folks. :P simple lan yet i so lurve te effin colors. :)) hahaha. Orange && Black. pffff. share ln.

ill be back. :]

BROKE.

2008-08-02T03:07:00.000-07:00

ppppppppppak! :(( effin broke.
EVERYTHING`S CHANGED. idunno why.
so there..

gimme a break. :c

Bummer.

2008-07-31T01:49:00.000-07:00

Seems like i haven't been updating much lately. i'm either busy or tired that i don't really feel like blogging. now I AM because i wanted to get something off my system. :]

sa makagets lang.

i hate it when it strikes again. i hate it when i see it again distorting everything i have done. i hate it when it makes my mind want to spin and hurl. i hate it when it makes me want to cry and just spend my time in the bathroom crying. i hate it when it makes me want to punch someone. i hate it when it make me burst into tears. i hate it when it makes me want to wish that life wasn't this complicated and when all i worried about was the next TV show i want to watch. i hate it when it makes me want to shout. it makes me want to scream. it makes me want to cry. it makes me want to destroy things. but i'm okay. i want to be calm. i will control myself. i won't let it get me. i will not make it crush my world. i wish i could go on and forget about it. i wish i could turn back time. i wish i'd never see it again. but then again, i don't know if i will survive without it.

sobrang emo nito. actually, di tlaga to fer me. I mean.. tss. taena! lahat ata halos nan kakilala co puro BROKEN e. love lost talaga. eff.

FULL UPDATE.

2008-06-23T17:45:00.000-07:00

WOOO. im so back :) how was tat? geeez. almost one month ata akong hindi nkapag update. coz of my soo busy-sched. haha :) LMAO. so there..maraming nanyare fer te past weeks na nawala aco. haha :) cmon folks. i haf alot`f stories to tell. di co nga lam kung pano ie-elaborate yun isaisa. yet i haf to para naman updated ang readers diba? haha :D ayun. lets start tis mess. joks. XD

1. 1ST MONTHSARY :)

okay. haha :D di kame nagkita ee. pero were both happy naman. whole day textin. XD pero may balak kaming lumabas ni beb. maybe this comming saturday :) ayun. HAHA :))

2. NGKITA-KITA NA ULET KAMI NG MGA MARIAN FRIENDS CO! XD

haha :)) eto. ilang taon to bago kami mgkita-kita ulet. LMAO :)) last week. wednesday ata yun. nagpunta aco sa meris :) haha. kita co sila SARAH, PAM, MEL, etc. & syempre sila GIAN, XTIAN & KURT. pero dapat talaga sila girlpren-JA yung ppuntahan co :)) haha! joks. pero uber happy talaga nung ngkitakita kami tat day. super miss co sila. the heck! tas next day. friday :) im with my new friend KAREN. actually di na siya NEW FRIEND. kasi classmates kami nung grade 3. ngayon nln ulet ngkasama :) kasi classmates ulet kami ngyong junior. hahaha :)) so there. again.. ngpunta ulet sa meris. and this time! makikita co na ang FAROUT. :D at last! hahaha :)) nag kita-kita den kami ulet. gahd! ang saya ng pag-approach nila sakin. even my FORMER-TEL na hindi co naman ka-close bfore :) hayyy. miss co sila talaga! tat was a BLAST! ilove em oh soo much!
BOW DOWN TO Y'ALL MARIANS. :*

3. HOUSE HOPPIN. :D ;c

hayyy :( em gonna leave CASTOR na. uhuhu T.T pakers. i haf naaah choice but to obey momma. pero okay ln :) hahaha. sabay ganun ee no? mas BETTER ang house na lilipatan. bwahahahaaa. lablab co talaga. XD

ayun. :D later ulet. eat ln. BTW, di pala co pumasok ngayon. hahaha :))
ill edit tis entry later. aight? xp

supaSHOT!

2008-05-31T01:30:00.000-07:00

so, nihiram ko muna yung new hat ni kuya :) it's sooo cute kasi. haha! napagtripan co din mag'picture ever. so there.. here's my shot's kanina. :)

ONE.

TWO.

THREE.

LOVED.

2008-05-29T19:29:00.000-07:00

BACK. xp

2008-05-29T18:42:00.001-07:00

HI! gawwd. i miss blogging mahn! i wsnt able to write my latest stories coz of my busy sched. S O R R Y . but now, im here. so i'll make kwento na ;D haha. xp

here it goes..

MAY 16. 2008. my very BIG DAY! haha :D katuwa ln i-announce. NYOK! haha ;) guess who?! xp
mky. sooo, sa monday may pasok na ulit. AYOKO PANG PUMASOK MAHN! new school, new classmates & friends. tskp. ;( na sasad ln tlga aco. hayyyy. mamimiss co yung batchmates co and syempre yung mga teachers ever dun. imma miss them soo soo much! >:D<

nyways, i'd like to say THANKYOU to them. nigawan nila aco ng FANSIGN! haha. prety pretty. share cu ln. xp

si FISHEE. (helena) && DEARIE (mabz) :)

si FORMER. (tel) && SISTERSOUL (ameya) :)

so there.. waa! daming nkamiss sakin dito. xp miss y'all more! IM BACK. SO SO BACK! dnt worry, babawi aco. :) hahaha! tae. wala akong masbe. tho. i haf a lotsa things to tell. hmmm. MY VLOG IS COMMING UP! MUST SEE :) (im going to edit this entry, L A T E R.) xoxo.

GIAN.GIAN.GIAN. :)

OUT.

2008-05-10T19:26:00.000-07:00

SHET! pansamantala akong mawawala sa mundong kinalulugaran ng mga adik sa net. tae xp wala pa palang net sa haus, bagong lipat kami.
huhu :(( till next blog :) ill miss y'all folks :/

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

2008-05-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

The anger, the guilt, the remorse, my little rebel heart. They are all effects of my yearning. Yearning for your genuine caring. I may not have been the real deal daughter. I may have disposed the "mama's little girl" title. But if ever I die way earlier before you, please do me a favor by putting that title on my grave. Because it has always been true even if some things got in my way. Things that have parted me from you.

Thank you for the hard work that really was supposed to be there.
The support and the always-being-there thing - - - thank you for complying with that.

Ma, i know this entry is not enough to tell everybody how much i love you.
I am very much blessed, because i have you as my MOM, BESTFRIEND, SISTER etc. Thncs for everything mama. SORRY din sa lahat. naging bad girl aco, i admit it. still..
hindi ko kinalimutan LAHAT ng payo & mga salita na binigay/shinare niyo. again, I LOVE YOU MA. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY :)

GLOBE SUCKS! tae.

2008-05-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

gawd! BADTRIP aco. alam mo yung BADTRIP? hindi pa dun ee, mas badtrip pa dun xp GLOBE SUCKS! pa-imortante na naman globe ngayon. Biruin mo, nag register aco mag unli ng mga 12noon, tas nag-reply siya mga around 5:30pm. SH*T! tapos eto na naman siya ngayon.. C'MOM! nabibitin tuloy aco :)) nyaha. anu ba un? ee kasi naman ee. TSKTSKTSK. okay okay, i'll wait nalang. EASY ME xp

i effin' love this song. i just dunno why :) may naaalala aco ee. haha! EKSDI. share :)

[Chorus:]
You got
baby you got that good stuff
Good love (she got that good stuff and that good looove)
Put it on me
Can't get enough
Yep, that's my girlfriend (yeah yeahh yeahh yeeahh)
Yep, that's my girlfriend
Yep, that's my girlfriend
Yep, that's my girlfriend
All mine, all mine
Shawty with me all the time (shawty wit me all the time)
Stay hot, stay fly
Keep her right by my side, (she so fine cant you see man)
Yep, that's my girlfriend
(can you hear me man)
Yep, that's my girlfriend
(can you hear me man)
Yep, that's my girlfriend
(cuz thats my girrlll)
Yep, that's my girlfriend.

FIAMETTE is LOVED <3

2008-05-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

okay. lotsa things happened in a blink of an eye :) weeeee. im here at my tita's crib for about 2-3weeks na. kase naglilipat kami, so i decided na dito muna mag stay :) so ayun nga.. habang andito ako with cousins, super HANG-OUT ang ginawa namin. almost everyday :)) nyeee. wala din kasing magawa sa house.

last monday, we went to SM SOUTHMALL. i bought new shoes, fab clother && lots of KAKIKAYAN. haha :)) wala ee. enjoy ako sa ganun. tapos, while walking along sm department store.. SHET! SI ATE AFIANNE! SI FIAMETTE! SI SHENYA! tae!!! SI IDOL!! gawd. nakatitig lang talaga co sakanya, haha :)) i was like.. SHET! pede bang maging lalake nalang? waha :)) tae lakas co. ohwell. natuwa lang talaga co, kase hindi pa talaga kami nagmmeet. Sa chatt & friendster lang. tas ayun, nahiya naman akong i-approach siya :/ tsk. SAYANG..

PHOTOGRAPHY.

2008-04-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

i love this photo. it's nice. err. hindi co alam kung bat ko naisipang kuhaan yung abnormal kong kuko kasama nitong bulaklak na to ee. :D haha! oh yea. di ko den alam na na-save co tong photograph na to. NICE NOH? haha. just deal with it folks. NICE TALAGA. I think i changed my mind. i dont wanna be a doctor na. haha! kiddin' PAPS! imma Doctor Wanna-be ika-nga. btw, gusto ko talagang maging magaling na photographer. haha! lakass no? Ohwell. moreover.. nag-eenjoy ako sa pag'stay dito with my cuzo's! aha. superr lakwatsa talaga. loveit! minsan lang den kasi namin ngagawa to. kaya ayun. i'll post our latest pictures right away. medyo BUSY pa aco. haha! sumaglit lang to post this entry. blaaaaaah. xP

I SO LOVE DAMS. DAMS. && DAMS.

Missin` you PAPS.

2008-04-22T01:25:00.000-07:00

last last summer pa toh. haha

Missin` my PAPA badly. i jez can't wait to see him again. UGH! :(( kaka-kausap lang namin kagabi ni Papa. tss. I dunno. pero na'miss co siya talaga. sabagay, almost one week din kasi kaming hindi nakapag'usap. AYUN. T_T gustoo co na talaga siyang makita... so ayun nga. aha! kamusta naman, wala kong masabe. kakatapos ko lang din kasi mag mail kay paps so ayun. medyo nabblock acu for now. BTW, dami co gustong i'kwento. uhu uhu uhu T_T yet i'll keep those stories PRIVATE nlang. aww.

ARAW MO TOH!

2008-04-20T19:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mel!!! wish you the best of LUCK!
more bf's to come. aha. kiddin` aa basta.
missyou na ^^ take care && I loveyea!

MADRAMA.

2008-04-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

Lately i've been dealing with so many things and a big pile of drama over my head.
i am really confused.in the sense that i don't know where to place myself. Everything's been doing a constant blink of an eye changing, and it sucks. UGH. I don't really like those constant changes without doing a prior notice. I do a lot of understanding with all this situations. but does anyone care to talk about mine? This whole thing for me may not be a big deal for those who really don't care to me at all. . but as far as im concern there are still some people i've trusted with all my heart. i don't need something that would take all the pain. a little hug would do, or maybe a nice walk or something crazy that i've never done before. it doesn't have to be dramatic to listen or to give advices to me. but i guess the world would keep on changing and i just have to accept the fact that people might start on a bitter change... and again you start to realize that ur still alone walking on that same rough road you've been travelling for the rest of your life. T_T hayyy.

me, mama && PINK.

2008-04-19T19:32:00.000-07:00

" Hope I made you happy with Pink. You deserve it, Anak, you've been good naman so it's the least I could do. Stay good! I love you. Hope you continue to count your blessings not focus on what you don't have rather just keep thanking God for everything He has blessed you with. You may not have everything you want and desire but you have a million reasons to smile and be happy. "

Thanks so much, Ma! Thanks for being one of those reasons. Don't you worry, I'll take extra good care of Pink. *hugs*

To Pink: I've waited soooo long for you to come into my life. Although we've just met and I'm still figuring which buttons to push at the right time, I'm definitely sure we're going to be good friends! ;)

btw, wala pa kaming picture ni PINK. haha.
don't worry. i'll post some ASAP. ^^

OBSESSED.

2008-04-18T19:47:00.000-07:00

sometimes a deadly feeling of obsession strikes me. a feeling when i want something or someone SOO much to the point where i go gaga just to have it/him or to get near it/him. HAHA, i can't say that i like the feeling. but i sure do miss it from time to time.

in the past, i felt this effin' obsession for only 2 persons. haha. i especially felt it with the first one. i was dropdead obsessed, and i was a kid. knowing just a few things in life, i prayed to have him OVER and OVER again EVERY NIGHT. i know it sounds weird and verry desperate but this one's for real. i mean it, literally. haha. and looking back now is verry funny. it makes me realize how crazy i was as an immature. TSS! ugh.

nasira yung favorite EYEGLASS ko! mahn.

2008-04-14T19:13:00.000-07:00

BADTRIP. nasira yung favorite kong eye glass.
Pinalitan ko naman right away. BLACK yung color, tapos nilagyan ko parin ng sticker na skull "ulet" sa side. NICE naman yung kinalabasan. still.. nalulungkot pa din ako. T_T

i'll edit this entry LATER. I haf a lot of things to finish first. ^^

Welcome Back :D

2008-04-11T20:07:00.000-07:00

HAHA :D okayy. WELCOME BACK IMAGEREADY. ang saya saya :D mkkpag-edit ulet aco. LOL. yun lang kasi halos yung past time ko this summer. habang andito pa ko sa haus. BAAAAAAD :/

Okayy. bininyagan ko na agad ang pagbabalik ni IMAGEREADY. . hehe. for more pics? visit my friendster page :D

me & you...

2008-04-07T18:21:00.000-07:00

I LOVEYOU.i loveyou. :)

2008-04-06T02:23:00.000-07:00

okay. Medyo badtrip ako ngeon.. nagloloko yung IMAGEREADY co. dunno why, papa'ayos co nlang. KANINO? yan ang malaking katanungan sa isip ko sa mga oras na to. "paano aayusin? kelangan pa bang ipaayos? o kusang babalik nlang sa dati?" sigh, I really miss my Work. (photoshooting) i mean, what could get worse? nyak. LABO. :( basta, SAD aco. Hindi ko tuloy naayos ng talagang maayos yung ginawa kong layout. SAYANG.. still. I like it. Thumbs UP! :) hehe.

Btw, nag'edit ng picture co si FISHEE (helena) :) NICE. wanna see? here...

Nice noh? ang cute ^__^ ANG CUTE CO. haha. Thankyou soo Much FISHBALL! ooh diba, special mentioned si Helena. naks! sana makita niya tong entry na to. Actually, this is really for her. HAHA!
basta, ang galing galing ni FISHEE. :) xoxo. pinasaya niya talaga co.
PRIMA pic to ngeon sa friendster. ^__^

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Argh. last night pala, i watched PDA sa abs-cbn. I saw MICHELLE BELMONTE caroline's sister. Nakakatuwa lang kasi feeling ko, makakapasok siya. HAHA! let's see :)Actually, si Michelle ay mamber ng G-FORCE. TWO THUMBS UP Ms. Michelle Belmonte. ^__^

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mama :) ...

2008-04-04T01:52:00.000-07:00

today is my mama's 42nd Birthday :)
i'll make kwento na..

last night I, myself decided to buy mama a cake for her Birthday. i don't have enough money so i ask my sib's to add some.
this morning, nagdecide si kuya na siya nlng daw yung bibili ng cake.
so i was like. "Mmmkay. sabi mo ee." Mga past nine na siya nka'bili. well, it's okay.
mama's not around pa naman. nag'simba kasi siya. ALONE. hihi :)

after a few hours...
wala padin siya. so worried na kami. But still, calm lang.
HAHA! :)) sabi kasi nila. delikado daw bumyahe yung tao pag birthday niya.. sabi nila ha.. so Ayun nga, nag'net muna co..

FRIENDSTER.......
mga past 11 dumating na si mama. may dalang food.
habang nireready namin yung foods na dala niya.. nilabas na ni edict yung cake.
AYUN. shocked si mama :)) HAHA! well, normal na samin yun. palagi naman siya nash-shocked ee. tapos, todo thankyou siya samin. :)) (welcome ma!)

tapos ayuun.
nag`lunch na..........
^_____^

hindi masyadong bongga yung day na to. But see? masaya pa di kami kahit simpleng surprises lang yung nangyari. and dahil dun, napasaya namin si mom kahit pano..
And thncs kasi.. kahit alam kong alam na niya na may surprise kami. pinakita pa din niyang SUPEEEER GUUUULAAAAT siya. :)) HAHA!.
i so love my mom guys! AS IN!!! :)

april 5: PAPA'S BIRTHDAY. :) loveyou pa!

i can feel the SUMMER now!

2008-03-31T01:40:00.000-07:00

Okay. i went back to school for the confirmation of my clearance.
and GAWD! ang iniiiiiiiiit.
Mahn! badtrip. UBER :((

well. i`ll make kwento nalang. aside from MAINIT NGA.. nka`sama namin si Pare...
GELO. which is my best-kasama when it comes to Puyatan factor. LOL!
AYUN. enjoy nmn, walang teacher`s sa skul. ARGH! what-da!
so, wala kaming natapos. in-short. .
walang napuntahan yung lakad namin this day..

mga around 2:30, nauna na sila BRU & GELO.
nag`stay muna co sa haus ni BUD (quel). AYUUUUUUUNN.
after an hour, nag decide ndin akong umuwi. AND AGAIN...
blog dito..blog doon.. baaaaaadddtriiiiip :((

ALAM NIYO BA KUNG ANO NGEON?
AMP!!!

see? im not-so-HAPPY.

2008-03-30T00:35:00.000-07:00

So far.. O-K-A-Y nmn ung vacation co.
Lately,i was oh-so busy. lack of sleep and what-so-ev. Pero okay lang atleast, na-experience cong mag`puyat sa LAMAY. oh yes, lamay. My bestfriend`s brother named MICKO (loveyou dearie) died a week ago because of the so-called DENGUE. Deym! amp na LAMOK yan. FU**!!!!

Okay. nag`stay kami sa Funeral for about 5days. pabalik-balik lang aco dun, tutal malapit lang nmn sa haus kea, pumpyag din si Mama na mag`stay aco dun.
And besides, kala Jazz nmn. :( AYUN. . super HIRAP. as in yung pag`iniisip kong sakin nangyari. i was Like, OOOOOHH! HINDI KO KAYA!! or mas grabe pa dun. :( siyet. OKAY tama na muna. :((

Habang nsa Funeral kami, siyempre. walang ginagawa, the 1,2,3 PASSER`S decided to
play cards. HAHA! and guess what? uber enjoy ang mga hitad. :))
SUper ingay namin. parang walang patay. SIYETS! mamimiss co tong mga toh:

♣Kuya Carlito - tawa king. joker. :))
♣Kuya aldrin - SEA-MAN-loloko. :))
♣Ate khyss - ang walang bahid ng powder. :))
♣Benok - PARENG-PUYATERO. karamay co sa puyatan :))
♣Loise - besDUDE co to. HALAKHAK QUEEN. :))
♣Jazzver - EMOtera :)) My bestest friend. forever karamay :)

And syempre AKO. ang TILI-QUEEN :)) haha. grabe, i`ll miss them. .
kung pde lang everyday ganun. LOL ^_^ every night nag`lalakad kami papunta sa 7eleven,pabalik sa ministop. siguro from, s.m North to proj.8 :)) haha. hindi naman.
AYUN, kelan kea mauulit lahat yun. And if ever na maulit nga, sana. .
wala ng nka`burol. ARGH. :( aaaah-basta, uber dami pang nangyari. .

BIRTHDAY GIRL.
o-k-a-y, Here we go.
Birthday? okay lang. not-so-special Day. mag`hapon akong wala sa bahay. .
and yes. First time kong mag`bday ng wala sa haus and hindi kasama family co.
Pero okay lang. kahit pano, na`feel ko yung DAY co. :) Moreover, mga 7pm. nag punta ulit ako sa Burol ni micko. Last-lamay na kasi ee, DAMING TAO. AYUUUUUUN. . .

Edit co nalang guys. super kapagod na ee :))
S-O-R-R-Y.

argh.

2008-03-09T00:02:00.000-08:00

Had a weird day,
my mind is kind of racing from it.
I've got a million thoughts swirling around in there and I'd love nothing more than to just spit them all out right here and now. Unfortunately, I don't think I can due to the nature of the thoughts and the other people involved. Sometimes I figure I over think things, and I should just let them go because it's not a big deal. But the problem is that even if I know everyone else thinks it's not a big deal, I still do. I do, and I wish I didn't, but I can't help it. I guess I don't even make sense, but....I just had to put something out here for the sake of feeling slightly relieved, if only momentarily.

FREAK OUT. . .

`break.break.break . . .

betchaii & pokz :]

2008-03-08T23:07:00.000-08:00

AT MCDO.
with POKENGKAii :]

i`ll miss you Ms. Anne Raquel A. Organo.
NAKZ!

Hindi to mababaw. Akala mo lang.

2008-03-03T05:27:00.000-08:00

Lunes.
Magisa nagaantay sa Dairy Queen. Masarap and Dilly Bar. May oras lang na pag nagkamali ka sa kagat, susumpungin yung utak mo. Ang sakit pag naramdaman yung lamig.

Hinihintay ko si mama.
Sa mga oras na yun pakiramdam ko, ako ang pinaka-loner/loser. Wala pa si Mama. Ang tagal niya. Di ako makakaalis sa DQ. Sobrang nakakatamad.

1:40 na.
Makakain ko na yung buong Dairy Queen.
Lahat ng dumadaan na babae, tinitingnan ko sa mata. Makikipag-usap.
Parang tatanungin. Nakapag-antay na ba kayo nang ganito katagal?
Hindi lamang sa araw na yun. Sa mata ko ka lang kakausapin.

Approximately 1:55 na.
Wala pa din si mama. Nagdoodoodle na ko sa resibo ng binili ko.
Dinodrawing ko nalang yung mga taong nakikita ko. Nagside view ako.
Mga 8 seconds after, "BETTINA?"
Humarap ako. Sobrang tanga ng itsura ko. "Hi"
Nag-hi naman ako. Nag-hi ako sa taong di ko kakilala pero kilala ako.
Nag-hi ako sa taong first time ko makita buong buhay ko. Umalis siya na parang
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED yung hitsura niya after niya ako makita. Sabay hawak sa fone, text lumabas na. Maganda siya. Magandang batang Babae. Tinedyer. Hindi mukhang taga-dating school ko.

Natuwa ako. Hindi dahil nag-hi siya. Dahil hindi ko na napnsin na nagaantay pa pala ako.
Natuwa ako dahil nakilala niya ako sa side view at malakas ang loob niya. Natuwa ako dahil tumigil ako sa pagdoodle. Natuwa ako dahil misteryosa siya. Imbis umupo at magpakilala, umalis na lamang at ngumiti.

Bumilis oras.

Ayoko na pagisipan pa kung sino siya.
Basta paborito ko siyang tao ngayong araw na to. :)

Hindi toh mababaw. Akala mo lang.

if only i could turn back time.

2008-03-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

Here's something that would never ever be understood by any who does not realize the truth that each moment brings. - - -

It's hard to keep pace with time.
Sometimes, so swiftly, it races to the finish line. . a finish line that is yet to be known. And just when you're about to feel the rush inside, out of vagueness, it suddenly slooooowwsss doooooowwwn like you've never felt it slow down before.
Moreover, it slows down just when you want things to speed up.

As of now, I really don't want to hurry up neither wish for a
tortoiselike moment to linger.
Time begins makin sense to me after I glimpse back on it because that's when I start to question, ponder, worry, cry, or laugh and grieve, or simply start to understand. Then somewhere, somehow, something pops along behind memories. . something that inflicts the feelings, most of which is "pain". . .
the ever-so-endless wishful thinking - -
"IF ONLY I COULD TURN BACK TIME. . . "

TIME----
i find it wonderful - - - crazy beautiful - - and something truthful - - a painful and honest proof to questions like "why?".

...

2008-03-02T01:07:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE??

EDUCATION. we need it.

2008-03-01T23:37:00.000-08:00

Last sunday.

We watched HINDI KASI AKO TAPOS.
with my school mates, friends, etc.
S.M North. (cinema 8)

HAHA! Ang ganda ng message ng story. nkaka`tama.
I mean, matatamaan talaga yung mga kabataan na binabalak mg`stop
at yung mga kabataang sinayang yung
panahon nila para mkapag`aral.

Hindi natin dapat sayangin yung pagkakataon, yung oras at oportunidad.
alam ko mahirap. kasi ganun yung nraramdaman ko .. natin ..
pero bakit hindi natin subukang isipin
yung mga magagandang bagay na pwedeng maidulot satin ng "PAG-AARAL" na to.
sa napanood kong stage play, pinakita dun yung pagkaka`iba ng mga
kabataang nakapag`tapos at sa mga hindi.
ANG LAKI NG PINAG`KAIBA. sobraa ..

Merong part dun na ng`tanong yung isang guy (jay-e),
"Bakit ang mahihirap,
alam na nga nilang mahirap sila mag`aanak pa sila ng madami? "
sumagot yung isa (mark)
"Kasi,hindi sila nakapag`aral."

TAMA. bakit nga ba?
Dahil hindi nila alam kung anong mangyayari pag nagkaron
sila ng madaming anak.
SIGE LNG SILA NG SIGE.
BAHALA NA.
Ganun nalang palagi. sabi nga ng iba,
"bahala na ang diyos samin."

Which is WRONG.
Hindi kailangang i-asa sa Diyos ang lahat.
Siya ang nag-bigay ng buhay natin,
pero tayo ang kusang gumagawa ng sarili nating kapalaran.
TAYO ang may karapatang mag-tungo kung saan nating gusto.

ika-nga
"Nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa" Diba?
---------------------------
Kaya ako?
HAHA! :)) Pagbubutihan ko pa.
AYOKONG matulad sa kanila. AYOKO!

Thncs sa writer, director, crew`s & casts.
Ang dami-dami kong natutunan.

let me haf a break. :]

hindi na tama to.

2008-03-01T00:29:00.001-08:00

naguguluhan aco ba`t ganito?
i hate myself. hindi na tama to.
ANG SAMA SAMA KONG TAO. :(

i know im NOT perfect. weLL everyone does.. :(

2008-02-08T18:57:00.000-08:00

if onLy i could make people understand . . .
it wouldn't be so hard being alone all the time.
doesn't it make you sick when you enter inside a room
where everyone always has a preconceived idea about you,
they summarize your whole story in their own versions
which isn't even close to what makes up the introduction.

people hate me sometimes because in their imagination, they want to hate me.
they say that im not an OKAY person, just because they want to think of me that way.
they hate how childish i am because in their minds,
i do not haf the ability to change.
they make stories of their own because to them, i do not have the story of my own.

its like . . .
some people limit themselves to consider those things
that are necessary in helping them to find out what person one really is.
in other words . .
some people find luxury in "hatting" or making rotten judgments
about almost everyone. :((

DON'T HATE ME.
PLEASE. :((

new Layie :))

2008-01-26T18:32:00.000-08:00

my NEWEST LAYIE :)

http://profiles.friendster.com/bhettinahlicious

hehe.
npag'tripan co Lng ung mukha cong
i-post sa friendster page co :)))
the heck!. ahihihi. [:

ayuun.
how i wish, i couLd squeeeeez my brain.
pra mkpag'kwento.
pero. pagod na tLga aco.
haha..
uber dami coh keang ginawa noh.
tsk.tsk.

ayuun.
i miss siopz, FEB, and yab :(
putek. anyways,
hanggang dito nLng muna. tinatamad na tLga aco.

ciao! [:

Peace the spork out, HEATH LEDGER.

2008-01-26T18:20:00.000-08:00

Heath Ledger

A New York Police Department
spokesman says the actor Heath Ledger has been found dead at a downtown Manhattan residence.
According to TMZ.com,
Ledger, 28, was found dead in his bed in one of his residences in Soho by his housekeeper at 3:35 p.m.
ET Tuesday. The actor has a two-year-old daughter with former fiancée Michelle Williams.
Ledger was set to play the Joker in the upcoming Batman film "The Dark Knight."
He received an Academy Award nomination for his work in "Brokeback Mountain."

OMG! si Brokeback guy!
aawww :( siya pa naman si Joker sa Batman. tssk.
tas bnoroadcast ko toh sa iba kong friends.
the heck. walang may kilala kay Heath!
hmmp. buti pa sila ate cheks.

]haha! si ate chesca, super affected.
why not. :)) kulang na lang maglupasay kanina eeh.
haha haaayy. let's pray na lang for his soul. and for ate chec's peace of mind..
hahaha :)))

PEACE THE SPORK OUT, HEATH LEDGER.

YAB YAB YAB ..

2008-01-20T00:11:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY.
churchness :) ayuun, we wsn't abLe to go to the Chruch.
this sunday morning. even in the afternoon :( mdyo busy kasi..
maraming inaasikaso yung mga tao dito.
kea etoo. another day for my "BISYO" (net.)
blog here .. blog there .. :p HAPPY naman. hehe..

YAB. :)
haha. bigLa Lng pumasok sa isip co ung word na yun.
bLah.bLah :)) okeii naman. LOL.
Labo co :)) HAHAHA!

speakin' of YAB =3
azar! :(( tawagin ba nmn akong "betits" ?!
amp. badtrip! Alam mo ba ung badtrip?.
hindii pa dun ee. mas badtrip pa Dun..
PUTEK! :(( nang'aasar pa tLga.
haii nco. NDI TEO BATii :(( INAAWAY MCO. hmp.
"sigh"

MCDO - YAB :( hmp!

" ALAM NA "

2008-01-19T00:36:00.000-08:00

HOO!!
at Last, natapos din ng maayos ung exam's. :)
nakahinga ndin aco ng maLuwang. not bcoz, nahihirapan aco. :)
pero dahiL. magagawa co na nmn mga gusto co. :)) HAHA!

okei, wat's wif this word?.
" ALAM NA " haha.
si akong kasi ee :)) natatawa Lng tLga co sa mga banat niya.
( nkaka-reLate? ) NOT dat MUCH. :p bLeh.
aaa bsta, natatawa aco. :)) HAHAHAHAHA.

SALON.SALON.SALON.
okeii. natutukso na nmn akong pag-tripan ung
buhok co. (",) nakakasawa kasi ee.
Pero. ayoko muna cguro.
gusto cong na uLit mg-pahaba!.
ung katuLad dati. :(
(kla mo nmn super humaba ung hair co)
hehe. :))

oh MCDO. :)

...

2008-01-15T00:22:00.000-08:00

I can't really explain how I'm feeling right now.
I've tried a few times to get started on a sentence but I always revert to my joyous backspace key and scrap everything.
I know what I want to talk about but I can't express it.
I want to say that I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on these exams comng up.
And I know exactly why.. :( haiiz.

to be continued..

absent. AGAIN?. lol :))

2008-01-14T19:06:00.000-08:00

absent ako ngayon,
sinumpong na nmn aco. haha.
guess what! nka-bihis nco. aaLis nLng, ng-bago pa isip co.
hehe. Ayuun. pumayag nmn si mama.
AYOKO kasi tLga ee :p hahaha.

SIGH, i miss PHOTOSHOP.
ang tagaL co ng ndi nkkpag-edit uLi.
tae taLga! puro review xe. amp.
keLangan co na nmn mg-araL. 3rd periodical na namin this comming THURSDAY.
waaaa! :(( naLoLoka nco.

okeii okeii.
iLL be back after a few hours.
mg-araL daw muna co. PUTEK!.

BOUNCE. :(

THANKYOU..

2008-01-12T17:00:00.000-08:00

once in a whiLe.
people may even take your breath away...

THANKYOU..
Kuya Fub's.. :)

http://www.angelfire.com/rtu-traborj/p/peers/tina

.. good reads :)) ..

2008-01-11T18:10:00.000-08:00

haha. supah nag enjoy ako kakabasa nito,

girls have unique powers.
they get wet without water,
bleed without an injury
&& make boneless things get hard

( haha, super laughtrip talaga)

---------------------------

Girl`s Part:
I can`t promise you perfection,
Cause that is not who I am.
I can`t promise you forever,
Cause I don`t hold fate within my hands.
I can`t promise you the sunshine, Cause I know there will be rain.
I can`t promise you complete happiness, Cause with true love, there comes pain.
I can`t promise to always smile, Cause life always has a way to make me cry.
I can`t promise to always stand strong, Cause it`s never easy to want to give life another try. .

Guy`s Part:
I know you`re not perfection.
To me, you`re so much more.
I know we may not have forever,
So I treasure every moment with you, In case another one isn`t in store.
Yes, I`d like the sunshine.
But I`ll still stand with you through the rain.
Your happiness is my happiness, So I`ll do whatever I can do to ease your pain.
When I first saw you smile, I fell in love at once.
And even deeper I fell, the first time I saw you cry.
It was at that moment I realized,
I wanted to protect you, And always be the one to wipe the tears from your eyes.
I know that life is difficult,
And has given you more than your fair share of pain and lies,
But that`s why I will be your strength when yours fall broken,
And give you my wings to fly. .

aw, :) NICE. SUPER NICE..

.. whatta CRAP! :( ..

2008-01-05T23:34:00.000-08:00

azar.
pasukan na nmn tom. AYOKO PA!!
just deaL wit it. ayoko pa taLga ee.
oh crap. shitii! :( naaasar aco. andami co pang gustong gawin.
aLam niyo ba un ha?.. LOL. aa bsta!. naaasar aco.
ok?..

haii..
ang isa pang kinaaasaran co ay ang FRIENDSTER.
maintenance kasii ee. amp!
arte. LOL. haha! :))
sayang andami co pa namang gustong gawan ng comment (wahahaha)
sorii nLng. LOL ;p joke.

okeii.
tiLL hur. nbabadtrip xe tLga aco!
grrrrrrrrr.

YOKO PA PUMASOK!
AS IN TALAGA.. :(

.. MOOD :: super azar! ..

2008-01-02T22:22:00.000-08:00

okeii. okeii.
ndi co aLam kung pano co uumpishan ung post nto.
pero, thanks. kasi naumpishan co na.
AT LAST!! :)

mood ;; naaasar sa pLanet! UBER.

i dunno why. but i reaLLy do.
maybe not bcoz of YOU. haha :) definiteLy.
but it's because of HER?. amp.
pero. ndi ee :)) ndi pde :p hehe.
haii ang Labo co tLga!. :( ee kasi nmn noh.

mood ;; naaawa sa sariLi :p LOL.

haii. masama bcong tao? :(
as in. bakit ganito,, prng Lhat siLa.
gusto akong gantihan. ano bang ngawa co?.
yea. may mga maLing bgay acong ngawa.
pero HONESTLY,, ndi co pinagsisisihan yun.

haii. haii. haii.
MAHIRAP NG MAGSALITA.
tama nto :(

.. very Long hiatus ..

2008-01-01T01:28:00.000-08:00

A VERY LONG HIATUS

goodbye 2007 :( prang keLan Lng..

wala lang. .
today, i am so much loved and adored by someone.
his name is NICOLE CABEL. been together for 1 month. .mag 2 months na on january 22.
and won't last forever. hehe. :)
i have this strong affection for him.
i really don't know why. .
i just ,,,

love him.

.. Think positive ..

2008-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

.. 2008 ..

2008-01-01T00:39:00.000-08:00

another year, another journey..
we'll be encounterin' new faces, new places, new trials to defeat.. some may walk out, some may walk in..
GOD took away some things, when He has something better to give..
for the this year, i'll be searchin' for myself.. the answers to my questions, the determination, the decision..
i know it won't be easy for me, neither to anyone else..
but i know deep inside of me, i can..
i may not be with the special people i treasured most, but..
it's ok, coz i have Him and the people who cares, and loves me..
life is a journey.. every happiness, there is sorrow.. every love, there is pain..
despite all, i never lose hope.. i never lose faith..

mas malungkot and masakit ang nranasan ng ibang tao. kesa sakin..
and i know, He won't give me a trial that i can't defeat..

to the people who love me, THANKYOU. you know you're doin' right.. hehe :)

to the people who hate me, well, im sorry.. this is me. tanggapon niyo nLng.

to my friends, keep in touch..

to akong. :) thankyou and i Love you.

sa mga taong nsaktan co. :( im oh-so sorry.

sa Lhat ng taong tumuLong and ngmhaL. sa mga kaibigang Laging nandyan.
sa aking pamiLyang ngsuporta at ndi nwaLa. kay LORD na gumagabay...

SALAMAT. :)

.. happy happy new year! ..

2007-12-30T18:59:00.000-08:00

waa. IT'S PUTUKAN TIME! :))

ohgwd! :p saya saya na nmn memyang gabii. haha :)) as in uber ingay dito sa street namin pag new year.
and nkakatuwa Lng kasi haLos Lhat, prng mgkakakiLaLa. i mean, tLgng ngbabatian,, ngkkwentuhan etc.
ang sarap niLa tgnan pag gento :p hehe. taPos. Lhat ng tao nkatingaLa. wahahaha :))
kasi ang ggna ng mga fireworks. :)

mua.mua. ayiii. mLapit na gumnda bLog co! :)) haha.
uber tenks to ate affiane :).

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

.. AKONG! ..

2007-12-26T23:12:00.000-08:00

akong :( asan nba ikaw?..
haii. pLagi nLng teong ndi ngkakasabay mg onLine. PUTEK nmn :(
aw. miss na kita. :p
may kasaLanan aco seo. kea, mg-onLine kna.
okeii?.. kahit pgaLitan mco :( mkausap Lng kita.

.. OUR HAPPY SHOTZz ..

2007-12-26T19:47:00.000-08:00

( Marian and I )

( L-O-V-E-D )

( chi POTubungbOng at BEBingka :p )

.. vacation BASH! ..

2007-12-26T18:59:00.000-08:00

UBER DAMI KONG IKKWENTO :))

waa!! grabeh. uber saya tLga :) ngkaron ng reunion ang LOPEZ'S CLAN! and it was oh-so fun tLga!
and. syempre di nwaLa dun ung bigayan ng gifts. :) (yea. my FAVORITE part) hehe. :) THANKS TO ALL.
i appreciated aLL your gifts. famiLy! :) uber thanks.

oh. :P i got DRUNK. amp!. 22o :)) haha. take note!. ndi co nagustuhan, bwiset!!.
grabe. ndi co akaLaing mtatamaan aco sa RED WINE. haha :) sa dami ba nmn ng nainom co?.
super basag aco that night. at AYOKO ng mauLit :( SWEAR!
amp. after 1hour, ang dami co sobrang sinuka. as in. busog daw xe aco ee. kea ganun :P
pero kahit na anoh pco nun. ndi na tLga aco uuLit. :P ANG HIRAP SUMUKA.
grabe. tapos. after cong mg-suka ng npka dami. ndi co ma-explain kung anoh ung nraramdaman co sa may
LaLamunan co :)) haha. aa BSTA. :P
haha. may kkwento aco. bout sa cuz co :) actuaLLy, sya ung ngyaya sakin uminom.
haha :) dba JO?. bLeh :P mas grabe ung tama niya sakin. as in!. haha. ngwawaLa tLga sya dun sa kwarto.
kung anu-ano pinagsasabi. haha!. tapos pag nakikita niya siLa DODs (tita chams),, tita Lhen ,, and MAmA.
ng me-merry Christmas sya :) bsta. ang KULIT tLga. :) npagaLitan tuLoi :)) wahahaha!. :P

the oder day. ( uber sa Lakas ung uLan )

ngpunta kami sa haus ni LoLa. pra ma-meet siLa tita theL,, and tita sybiL.
haha. pag bungad pLang naming mgpipinsan. UTANG agad ung tinanong namin.
haha. :)
yea. mga mukha kaming PERA.. hehe :) pero sakay nmn siLa tita. kea ngbigay agad. THANKS THANKS!
enjoy tLga kami. sobrang kwentuhan-tawanan-kuLitan-asaran at may iyakan pa. :p
then mga around 4pm. nag-sm uLit kami. as in LAHAT. hehe. :)
maLapit Lng nmn ung maLL dun kea. ng jeep nLng kami. and besides.
ndi kami pdeng mg-taxi xe. uber sa dami noh!
AYUN. napuno ung jeep ni manong driver. :) oh dba?.

SOUTHMALL na :)

ng-hiwahiwaLay kami pag dting sa maLL. im wif ate eLaine-mangge and tita theL.
so four kami :) haha. first. Go kami sa may department store. :P haha. SALE kasi ee.
so buy kami ng kung anu-ano tLga! :) SAYA!. ng-enjoy na nmn aco :p
tapos kain dito-kain dun :)
at. ng pa-picture din kami together wit the boys. kasi ngkita-kita kami :P
hehe. then un.... saya tLga. :)

S H A W A R M A is LOVED :) haha. nakakain na nmn aco ng shawarma :)
haha. saya tLga. fave. co tLga un :)) ahihi.

.. PUTEK ..

2007-12-22T22:04:00.000-08:00

aw. PUTEK na connection to oh. :(
badtrip tLga. ang bgaL bgaL!. ngLoLoko. haiii. :(
kung keLan ang dami kong baLak gawin. amp!.
grabe, sarap ibato!. :(( watta CRAP.

.. sufah FICTURE ..

2007-12-22T18:58:00.000-08:00

FIXURE-FIXURE TO THE MAAAAAX!! :))

haha. uber saya nung araw ntoh!. :)) actuaLLy, Last november pa ata toh ee :)

pero ngaun co Lng in-upLoad.LOL.

super niLibot namin ung buong SM SOUTHMALL. haha :)) kaming 5 Lng.

cLa mama and tita nsa binggo-han :) oh dba?. sossy. =P

eniweiiz. i posted this picture. kasi, this is the FIRST TIME na nag-bond kaming mgppinsan. ung as in SUPER BOND. :) and em happy for that. yah I DO. :))

This comming dec. 26. bka pumunta uLit kami sa Las piñaz pra mg spend ng vication. and SANA mauLit toh.
haha :))

I MISS YOU ALL GUYZ!!

Love-Love.

.. thank you ..

2007-12-21T23:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY FIRST MONTHSARY, to
my DEAREST AKONG beybeh! :))

I oh so LOVE YOU NICO. I REALLY DO. :)
muah.muah.muah.

.. I SO LOVE YOU ..

2007-12-21T19:22:00.000-08:00

.. haha. 2nd post for the day.uber waLang mgawa ee.
em soo tired of editing pixies. :) btw. ENJOY!. yah.
i Love editing pixies at photoshop. its my number one hobbie. :)
geeez**

em so inlove.
haha. yes I am. :) eniweiz. honestLy i haf a Lot of probs.
isa na dun ay kung pano kami mgkikita ni nico :( too bad.
haii :(ang hirap grabe. mgpapasko tapos ndi man Lng kami ngkita or ngkasama.
siyetz! :((
i wanna cry!. LOL. :(

I so Love you NICOLE CABEL. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
woo. grabeh.ang biLis mtpos ng 2007.
prng keLan Lng. gumagawa kami ng grahams. para sa pag-saLubong
sa 2007. tapos. ngaun. mgtu-2008 na agad. woot!. :) cooL.

hindi co mkakaLimutan.
sa mga npagdaanan co!. hahaha :)
ang dami nun SWEAR!. dba? (too private)

sa mga tumuLong sakin. ngbigay ng advice or wat. THANKYOU.

To MY MAMA. thankyou for evrything. i Love you mama.

SA MGA NAGMAHAL, NAGTIWALA, AT PATULOY NA NANDYAN PARA SAKIN. (two thumbs Up!)

MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT SAINYO. :))

.. Merry Christmas! :) ..

2007-12-21T17:54:00.000-08:00

.. Merry christmas ..

oh.its Christmas tym. :)
it feeLs so coLd. haha :))
super excited nco this comming dec.24 :)
not bcoz its christmas day.
but bcoz. marami akong mttanggap na gifts!! haha. ang saya!! :))

wooooo..

..my CHRISTMAS WISHLIST..

-- FREEDOM! amp. (number 1 in my List!, khit na aLm kong ndi pde.)

-- makasama co si akong :( LoL.

-- have my BLOG improved. :)

-- more patience.

-- PEACE of mind. PLEASE!

-- seLf confidence.

-- fab cLothes.

-- wedge shoes.

-- extra time wif my friends. :) mizzyou guyz!

-- MALL!

.. BAD3P! na tempLate toh ..

2007-12-21T00:30:00.000-08:00

ayoko na!. PAGOD NCO. :((

ang hirap mg-edit ng tempLate!. actuaLLy okeii na ung codes ee.
kaso, pag pinaste co na at inupLoad. AMP! ang daming error.
bwisit tLga!! nkaka asar. mghapon cong inuupLoad un. ayaw tLga.
azar na azar nco. aLam mo un. ang sarap sumira ng computer!!
(pero wag nLng. sayang) haiii :(( HELP HELP HELP!!!

.. imagine wat the WORLD couLd BE ..

2007-12-19T23:48:00.000-08:00

LOVE is a feeling of infinite happiness.

true love isn't love at first sightit should be love at every sight

no matter what angle I look at youyou're always perfect

your smile; sometimes i swear it's the only reason i'm alive

and sometimes, if you're lucky,now is the first step into forever

if they could love like you and me,imagine what the world could be.

because to me,you couldn't be better

young & beautiful is what everyteenage girl dreams to be,but while they're stuck on looks,i'm

stuck on you and me. all we can do is hope for the best,

& prove them all wrong.you're my life, and i couldn't live without you.when i'm with you, it feels

like thats where i belong.

and honestly, it's the only place i want to be.

.. BAKASYON NA!! :)) ..

2007-12-19T02:09:00.000-08:00

GOSH.. bakasyon na, and im soo soo soo happy bout it!.
sa wakas. mkakatuLog nco ng more than 4 hrs! :)) LOVED.

btw, :( super naguguLuhan aco. coz of some things that are too PERSONAL.
yeah :( bout THAT. ( love.)

I am so much happy. btw, on the oder side. im sad.
i dunno if im gonna take aLL the risk para Lng mging maayos kami.
masya, LAHAT. or hahayaan cong gento. :( offcourse.
cno ba nmang tao/babae ang ayaw maayos ang kaniLang LuvLyf ryt??. :(
pero minsan. naiisip co. bakit ganito?, prng aco Lng ung kumikiLos.
pag nDi aco kumiLos. WALA. as in waLa. :(( gets?
ANG HIRAP. :((

Minsan, tinatanong co nLng ung sariLi co,
kung tama ba ung mga nging desisyon co.
Pero para sakin. TAMA. kasi. mhaL co xa ee. diba?.
Pero kung hbang buhay ee, ganito. BAKIT PA?. BAKIT? :((
waLa acong pinagsisisihian. NANGHIHINAYANG AKO.

xe. ndi ganito ung inasahan co.

wiLLing acong gawin Lhat.
sana ganun din SIYA, :((
I MISS YOU. AND I LOVE YOU.

SORRY. ngtatampo Lng tLga aco, sa mga nangyayari :(

AYUN.
so much for this.
ciao!! :)

. MY FIRST DAY to BLOG :)) .

2007-12-15T22:44:00.000-08:00

BETTINA ANNE L. QUEñANO
14 yrs of age.

.. aw!. em soo much HAPPY. im now bLogging!..
after soo many years. im here. typing some cooL messages bout
what i did,how i face my day blah blah. :p
btw. i haf problems pa.
i dunno how to edit my Layout thingy. :(
I NEED HELP!.
pLease.pLease. :(( nananawagan aco sa mga mgagaLing jan.LOL.

eniweiiz, PLEASE do inform me. if ur wiLLing to heLp.
even simple tips are higLy appreciated :)

love!love!.